Shattered
Wednesday 30 May 2007
Last night, I was reminded of something that I've been putting behind me. Somehow, the topic popped out and the wound reopened again. I couldn't take my mind off it. All those suppressed emotions came hurling back at me. Luckily I was alone outside at the comp. Not ready to reveal it to others yet. Playing O2 Jam on comp really helped. Found solace within the game and music and it gradually, pulled me off my train of anguished thoughts.
I feel so shattered. I don't know when I'll recover from it.
--Talking to myself--
16:09
Last Goodbye to my Colleagues
A few hrs ago, I waved my last gdbyes to my colleagues. It was my last day at work. It has been almost 5 months ever since I started out as an administrator at this Math tuition centre. Tuesday, the 29th of May, has been a very quick day. Recalling of myself sitting at my office desk, it's hard to believe that that was the v last time I would be speaking into that black phone and clicking my black Samsung mouse. Ten days ago, I was still counting down the days happily. Now that the day has finally arrived and left, it just feels weird.
I strolled back from my office smiling and feeling a warmth inside, a combination of emotions that I have nv experienced before. Walking out from that office, I felt that I've graduated from one of the learning phases of my life. Although I did make some blunders, I'm actually quite proud of myself. Maybe that explains the happiness and warmth.
Thanks to my amicable, understanding and supportive superiors (Michelle, Ai Ling, Norman and Jennie), I was able to work and learn in a very comfortable environment. Even when I had made big mistakes, they were still very tolerant towards me and gave me constructive suggestions. I'm also very grateful for my colleague, Ling Xiu, who was always there to lend a helping hand whenever she saw me rushing to meet deadlines. Of course there were the occasional unhappy times when I just wanted to go on non-stop with my frustrations. Haha. Still, thanks to you all, for making my first working experience so wonderful and memorable.
--Talking to myself--
01:10
Sakura Buffet!!!
Tuesday 29 May 2007
Attended a staff lunch held at Sakura (Downtown East) today. Purpose of lunch was to say bye to the pple leaving (myself and Ling Xiu) and to welcome a new teacher joining the team. This was the first time I was in any staff event, mainly becuz working as an administrator has been my first ever job.Food and price were reasonable ($20 nett per person for lunch).I attacked the sashimi first. To me, it's an appetizer. Either soup or tat. Personally, I feel that sashimi should be the first dish cuz it's best to have 'clear' tastebuds to really savour the freshness of the chilled raw fish meat. The following plate was mainly chilled scallops and baked mussels. Totally skipped the ordinary chinese cooked food. I prefer to have stuff that I rarely get a chance to eat. My colleagues even tot that I love eating seafood.
Of course later on, there were the teppanyaki dishes like chicken and shishamo (I prefer to call it pregnant fish though). Last dish of my main course was again, seafood -prawns. Prawns are forever the last dish cuz I find it the most effort-consuming. A few of my colleagues were slightly amazed by how I could shell prawns using knife and fork. Hee. But I wasn't that skilled la. Still have room for improvement.
Last course of the meal - desserts. The cakes were so-so.
I was full after lunch, but not bloated. Very sure there was still enough space for more. Luckily I didn't gorge myself. Or else it's an even longer time on the treadmill (so boring...) Worse, my colleagues would think that I'm a pig.
There wasn't much chance for everyone to mingle abt. It'll take more than just this lunch for everyone to reach that stage where there's no wall of awkwardness dividing us. Still, being able to be in the company of nice colleagues outside work was great. Plus, tmr will be my last day. Gotta treasure the remaining time I have left with them.
--Talking to myself--
01:16
The 'a while more' woman
Friday 25 May 2007
I don't know why, but for this past wk I've been crazy over Big Ben's pies. I love their crust the most. Unlike those flaky kinds u get at pastry shops, these pies have a hard crust. I had steak and guinness pie for dinner, then chicken and mushroom pie for lunch the next day. The latter is the best so far from all those I've tried.
At the counter serving me, was the same lady again. I call her the 'a while more' woman. Don't feel as pissed as before. Few wks ago, she really got my blood boiling when she REPEATEDLY told me to wait a while more when I just wanted her to give me an estimate of my waiting time. Oh, I forgot to mention that she resembled Ruhua (a hideous-looking woman on Wu Zhong Xian's show).
So, I visited Big Ben's Place twice this wk (for dinner and lunch). When I went there for lunch, she recognised me. She was friendly towards me that day. I bet she only recalled me going the previous day and not a few wks ago (that fateful day when she got my blood boiling). Most probably becuz I didn't tell her off that day itself, which I seriously seriously regret. Not that i like telling pple off, but I felt tat I shd have stood up for myself. By repeatedly telling me to wait 'a while more' when in fact she had already made me wait for 25min, I felt like a fool. It was like she didn't treat me seriously as a customer. I was having takeaway and she actually made me wait alongside those dining in. Takeaway and Dine-in are 2 different queues. Standard procedure!
Yes, but that's all behind me now. I still think she resembles Ruhua. Hahaa. I've satisfied my cravings for pies but I feel another craving growing...... HOTDOGS. I'll grab one for lunch tmr before I head for work.
--Talking to myself--
01:28
To STRANGLE or not to STRANGLE, that is the question
Sunday 20 May 2007
A few wks back, i had this craving for Big Ben's traditional english pies. So after our workout at the gym, i got my mum to drive down to bedok. 'Mmm... savoury, warm and cripsy pies for lunch,' i thought to myself. Unfortunately and irritatingly, that was not how lunch was going to turn out.
It was the lunch hour period, so the place was almost fully-seated. I told my order to the lady at the counter, but as she was busy preparing drinks at the moment for the other custormers, she told me a while more. So, alright. i waited for a while (5min). 'Hi, can i make my order now? It's take away,' I added. Again, she told me a while more. So, ok, i waited (10min). After some time of observing her move hastily from counter to table, table to table and back again, it seemed that she wasn't going to serve me yet, even though she claimed 'a while more'. So I asked her how long did i have to wait. At least i could decide to continue waiting or just leave. Again, she said a while more and explained that there were other customers to serve first.
It was starting to get on my nerves. Of course i knew she was busy with other customers. I justed wanted to know a time, an estimate. I thought maybe she didn't get the crux of my qn, so i asked her in a clearer and more concise way. 'Judgin from the list of all the orders on your board, can you give me an estimate as to how long more i've to wait,' I said, trying to control that fury that was growing inside. She looked at me, looked at her board, then looked at me again. Guess wat she said. A WHILE MORE.
THAT WAS IT MAN. I swore i would have strangled her if it wasn't illegal. Even a pri sch kid would know how to say 10 min, 15min or something. So pissed!
If the word 'impatient' or 'unreasonable' pops into your mind now, then i've got to apologise for the lack of literary skill i possess that handicapped me from presentin to you 100% of that day's re-enactment.
But the pies are still great. So, just avoid the lunch hour.
--Talking to myself--
16:59
The girl with 2 colours in her hair
Thursday 17 May 2007
Yipee! I've finally highlighted my hair. Gone is the old and boring black.I had it done with Ben (my super gd friend) at his regular hairstylist. From Simei, all the way to Boon Lay......I chose a dark brown base and a very light brown (almost blond) highlight. The part which I recalled the most was the washing off dye part. Hell it was ticklish! Whenever the hairstylist sprayed the water near my ears (ard temples), this ticklish sensation just ran from the ear, down my spine and all the way to my hip! Left temple, left hip. Right temple, right hip. Don't ask me why, I also have not found an explanation for that.
For Ben, as his hair was short, he had that helmet-looking thing with poked holes on. Made him look like a monk! Haha. That doesn't really matter. His hair turned out great eventually. Especially after his hairstylist exercised his skilled fingers to style his hair with this newly-released gum. 25sec. Poof! Hair is styled.
Later on, I went to his place and watched Mr. Bean's Holiday together with his family. Not very surprisingly, quite a stupid show. Played some O2 Jam then left after that. Long ride home again.Had a great time today. But pocket didn't after that highlighting. Still, thanks to Ben for recommending his hairstylist which was less expensive than other salons. And a bigger thanks for the company! :)
--Talking to myself--
01:04
Dad's b'day outing at Suntec
Tuesday 8 May 2007
7th May - Dad's b'day. I can't rmb how old he is already. Quite old.
Ytd, my mum, sis and I, treated Dad to Kenny Rogers dinner to celebrate his b'day. Great food! The chicken was tender and succulent. The servings for the side dishes were generous. My favourite side was potato salad. And of course, the muffins too. I wanna have Kenny Rogers again. Soon, I suppose. OY's b'day is in end of May.
After dinner, we took some pic at the Fountain of Wealth. Haha. It felt like we were tourists. My sis was bent on buying this FOX cargo pants. So we made a beeline to FOX. I ended up buying a brown sweater too. We looked at shoes, watches and more clothes. Later on, we headed to N.Y.D.C for dessert. 
I really enjoyed myself that night. We chatted and laughed over dinner and dessert. Plus, I realised that my dad tends to loosen his purse strings when we're out of this kind of special family outing. A very good news indeed :) We've decided to make this a monthly thing since it's quality family time. Next month's destination: Sizzler. Mmm... I SO LOVE EATING STEAK.
--Talking to myself--
18:16
Later on, I went to his place and watched Mr. Bean's Holiday together with his family. Not very surprisingly, quite a stupid show. Played some O2 Jam then left after that. Long ride home again.